BEST apology to your narcissist!*~????

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Hi! My Name is Tracy A. Malone, founder of Narcissist Abuse Support and I’m here to help! 🙂

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Hi, this is Tracy

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And I would like to take this opportunity to apologize to you

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I’ve been learning so much since I last saw you and

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They’ve been on a journey of self development and discovery and I’ve learned what a codependent is and all of its characteristics

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Guess what I have them all

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I’ve also learned what a nurse this is and guess what?

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you

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You have all those characteristics

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Does this sound like me loving kind generous genuine? I was so unaware about myself

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But you saw it didn’t you?

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I’m sorry. I let that’s what the truth is out. I

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Guess I wasn’t my real self with you because it wasn’t until I hit bottom

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There near Grand finale I learned

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That things that happen in my childhood that actually change my perspective on having a relationship with you

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if I had only known

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You could have been on to your next supply sooner

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if I had only known

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this about myself

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We would have never been together and this new me would never tolerate abuse again

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and you would never have liked the new me I

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Wouldn’t have been listening to your lives. I’m bad acting anymore

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I’m sorry. I didn’t know what a narcissist was

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if I had only had time to search the internet

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endlessly all night long and becoming a detective before

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You broke my heart

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I’ve been selfishly

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Taken that time away from being at your beck and call

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I

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might have learned

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But then I wouldn’t have been your supply for so long

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I’m sorry that I wanted to love you. I trust you

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Because of this path of mine is so needy like I want. I want I want

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By giving you this love and trust so easily that you never got to experience to learn how to love

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And now you’re an unloving and untrustworthy person

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I’m sorry that I’m a dreamer

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filling me I

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grew up in an error of

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The mouse from the Magic of Disney and I would be in Prince charming I

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Needed to love somebody no matter whether they loved me or not I believed in the prince

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the Fairy Tale and the happy ending

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My mistake was thinking that you deserve to even audition for Deverel I

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Had only been a person that lies and cheats

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And abuses with charm. We would have been a perfect match for one another

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I’m sorry that my praise and genuine love

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schooled you into thinking that you are special and

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I’m sorry that I saw you as a friend

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Now you’re think you’re worthy of my friendship

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In the end I set you up to fail

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Because you were nothing

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like a friend

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Sorry, I took all your power because I hear that as a narcissist supply. It’s my job to let you ruin me forever

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And I’m sorry. I didn’t comply with that requirement. I didn’t know all the world

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like whey did

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Trying to ruin me I give you more power. I get like a super power thing. I guess I should have understood that I

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didn’t mean to see your mask and

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But they all came off, and I started to see them. Maybe thought it would have been I

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Smarter and

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Being able to not put all the pieces together

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Maybe thought you could trick me forever. I’m sorry to let you down

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I’m trying let you stop dating me the long locks the night. We laid in bed and talked all night

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if I had only nattu

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then

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You would have been able to pretend that you cared that much longer

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And I’m sorry. I made you never deal with your own pain

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instead I called you and I let things slip by

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Maybe you wouldn’t be this far gone

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Maybe there would be hope for you and your soul, or your future if I had only nagged you

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I’m sorry that you’ll never see my wonderful son again. I’m really happy for him because if he had stayed near you any longer

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He would have been like you I

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Am sorry I cannot feel empathy for you because you cannot feel empathy or love

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I’m sorry you can be the man you pretended to be I thought he was kind of

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I’m sorry that the man was just an act. I think you forgot your lines your fake script

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You showed your true self

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Sorry, you weren’t brave enough to be a man?

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I’m sorry that you can protect me in the end from the most terrible betrayals

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I know that that active made it seem like you would

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I’m sorry that I would rather not see you ever again. I

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Didn’t think you would ever be a horrific human being?

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And I thought you were my friend my husband my boyfriend. I will never let this happen again

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Because your betrayal your brain fuck your attempt

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It didn’t work and finally I know the truth. Yes

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I am sorry that I’ve been forced to learn about domestic violence

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narcissist appease an

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emotional Neglect

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And yet, I owe you the biggest. Thanks for pushing me. Just one last time so that I find me sauce

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I’m sorry. I tried to be so perfect for you I

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Didn’t need to try so hard

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Give as much the right one will think I’m perfect with all my flaws I

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Am sorry to disappoint you

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I’m going to be just fine I

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Won’t give up I

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Won’t stop learning and I won’t ever forget and I’m sorry

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That I didn’t see that sooner

 

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