I have dreamt of going to Italy my whole life. I am going with the “next supply” of my ex narcissist. As we come out of the fog of trauma, we heal ourselves there is life after abuse.
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Hi there this is Tracy, and I want to share something that’s so exciting and it’s unusual right
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It’s it’s going to be something that I’m going to share with you that tomorrow. I am leaving
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to go to Italy my bucket list of places I always wanted to go and
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the funny part of the story is that I am going with
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3x my last narcissist
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His new supply if you would many of you might have seen the videos of LaSalle
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And I was L is from Australia, and we’re meeting in Italy this is the first time I’ve ever traveled
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To Europe I’ve been to South America a lot been to Mexico and all over the United States
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but I’ve never been to Europe and it has always been my dream and
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Something that
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I’ve been rehashing and thinking about in my brain was
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Being in my ex family in-laws
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Family they were worldly travelers they went to Europe all the time
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and they always talked about us all going there and
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They would blame me for not being able to go because they were afraid that I wouldn’t be able to eat anything. They’re
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Not a picky eater
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I don’t like fish, and I don’t like lamb
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So I’m on the low spectrum of meat
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but I can eat vegetables I can eat plenty of food and
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No place is better in the world for me than Italy because I’m like a pasta queen so
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Them using that as an excuse was them gaslighting me
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and I’m just sitting there and blaming me and my eating habits on not being able to go there and
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Yet Here. I am fulfilling my dream without
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Them without them to sit there and take that away from me the something I’ve wanted to do and I’m so
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Get excited and the fact that I’m going with Bozell who?
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Was the narcissist next supply is
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Is a pretty awesome story for those of you who don’t know she met me on the day? He had me arrested
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He had me arrested
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Technically for trespassing, but it was
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Exacerbated by reckless endangerment and
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domestic violence in Colorado and in many states, there’s something called mandatory arrest and if
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The police are called and people have been in an intimate relationship
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No matter when
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This
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constitutes domestic violence
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Why I don’t know
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It’s not domestic violence and the people that are in domestic violence situations where they’re being beaten
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They don’t get arrested
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look another story great, but
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The real reason that he had me arrested
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She was there, and he didn’t want me to talk to her
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No matter what he had to keep us apart
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And so the best way was to him who call the police and say he was scared of me
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Sorry
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Not really scary. I was crying at the time not hysterically, but like what the fuck like
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Sorry
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But
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He didn’t want us to talk and
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the reason was
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I’ve been dating him for two and a half years
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She’s been dating him for two years
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at the same time
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Plus I was there to forgive him for sleeping with door number three so
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He couldn’t allow us to talk or he would be losing her as a supply
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so in a very
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manipulative just stupid
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Inconsiderate thing if you call the police and had me arrested
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It screwed up my life for 18 months, and I’m so glad that it is gone for the last 18 months
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I have had to get permission from a judge
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to leave the state much less
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leave the country and now I’m free of all of that and
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My bucket list is being
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Given to me tomorrow when I get on my plane
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To go to Italy by myself, I’m a little nervous
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I have to go repack all my stuff because they don’t know what I have to wear
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we’re going to her wedding liselle song is getting married, and I’m going to be there with her and
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it’s
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it’s a dream come true, and I
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don’t
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Know if I would have ever hired her as a friend obviously you know on the other side of the world
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But I am so grateful for
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That son of a bitch and that day he had he had me arrested
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Because I made a friend and I made a sister
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So I just wanted to share that with you. My dream is coming true and I
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I’m going to record a lot of videos in
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Italy for you I have some ideas and I’m bringing my camera and my tripod and
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I’m testing out this microphone right now because it’s a lot later than taking my other one, so we’re testing it now and
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I’ll see you guys in Italy so
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Thanks for watching. There’s no narcissist tips in here except for the fact that I’m going with the next supply
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So this is Tracy
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I have a great free two weeks
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And I will see you from Italy we’re staying on a vineyard in Tuscany
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