Each week I learn something that helps me connect the dots of my abuse. This week I put about five pieces and events together and now I understand what happened with my x family. Four years completely shocked by the worst behavior of any human beings. I know now I was dealing with a queen narcissist that had a very very big web of lies. I am so lucky to be free of this narcissist, controlling, lying, abusing, using.
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Hi There This is tracy and
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Tonight I have Decided to Make a video because
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and how Sometimes Things Just
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Start To come Together and
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Pieces That
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Didn’t Make sense before and if This doesn’t happen to yet it’s going to happen but
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Things Just don’t Make sense and
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Today Tonight I’m sitting here and I’m like Putting These pieces Together for no Particular Reason
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But They Just Came to me and so I wanted to give This example of
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Financial Abuse and Sipping by Revealing This
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Story and in True Story if that be you know told
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Or something that my Ex-Husband Did to Me and [my] Child and it was Financial abuse and
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Until
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Just Now I didn’t see it so here’s the story, I’m wearing my
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Son’s George Washington University Cap and my Daughter Washington University Shirt
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I’m not gonna leave that on my Hair Because it’s all Squishy so um my son went to George Washington University and
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This is how, We were Financially abused, [oh]?
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Put That Right There
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It went down Too far sorry I met my Husband and We were Married when my son, was [eight] Years Old and?
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his
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Family Immediately Took to
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my son and Called him Grandson
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Stand Him on his Lap Taught him how to write Up in A ride on mower and
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for all intensive Reasons This was his his Grandparents and
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My Husband’s Sister his Aunt and They
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Seem to Really love Us i called me Daughters They Called him Grandson and
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Almost Immediately When I first met my Husband
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He Would!
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use my son
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To tell his Parents How Important the most important thing, was that my son’s Education?
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Was going to be Paid for and
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You know it was Almost like he was trying to?
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Say how so important this, was that you know?
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It was almost weird That he kept on Saying and There was Always in Front of me but?
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They Would always Tell Us all of Us that
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They, Were Going to Pay for his Education as long as he got Into an Ivy League School or
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Appear To something That They Approved of Because they, Would tell him Quote Unquote
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You’re Going to be a Millionaire one Day and you are going to have to learn to Hobnob with the
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you Know People of Society and People of your like because that’s how, you’re Going to
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Become A better Person right
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so Screwed Up but I
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Was always Uncomfortable I never liked taking Anything for my Husband and People that Really knew Me Knew That
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I
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Didn’t I was very Uncomfortable with him?
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Spending Money on Me and Lover Diculous Things Sometimes but I
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Wasn’t Comfortable with this This was my son I had Finally Gotten?
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You, no, one Thought to a Certain level in My Career right before When I was divorcing my?
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son’s Dad and I could start safe but my In-laws Convinced Us and Told me Repeatedly and
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If I voiced my Opinion to my Husband that I wasn’t Comfortable with the fact that they Wanted to Pay for his Education
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They Would sit me Down and pat me on you know Loving Shoulder and Tell me
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Enjoy your Life to Enjoy your Own Money you know all we have to do Is sell an Ashtray or you know Picasso or?
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All These other Things that they had I was
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Taken By Their Money
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Only in and Shocked I Didn’t ever Expect it or wanted but
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you know I
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Was just as Pretense that that?
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I’m on my wedding day I were
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[250] Thousand Dollars Worth of Jewels of my Body
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and i had to Wedding Days and it was obscene Had Two full whole Wedding Cakes day after each other and
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There Were Different $250,000 Jewelry and A Different dress on the Second night
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but
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They pushed my son to do Really
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Well in School and I think This was to Make up for the lack that my
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Ex-Husband
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Was DysleXic and Had to go to special schools?
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and I’m not Saying There’s Anything Wrong With that but he Didn’t Wanted to Read they were 16 and
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you Know I had to for free email that he, was done To people so I
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Think They Were They, were Pushing him
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To be something that my Husband Hadn’t been Able to be because [of] this Handicap that he Had and my son
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Worked Really Hard and he was A national Honor society Student and Here in Colorado
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Everybody
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Ninety Percent of People go to
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College Here in Colorado, We have an awful lot of them Within you know ten Minutes of me Either Direction and?
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They Wanted him to go to this Really good School and They Picked George Washington S
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One of Them i took my son on the college Trip and We went to like?
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You Know 20 Different Colleges and I Would have never in A million Years Pictured my son going to George Washington
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Or being in the City of Dc Because She felt a little suburb Kid his whole life and
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I just didn’t think that that was
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What he Wanted but They Talked him, Into it my father-In-law
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Had Gone To Another School in Dc and I, was met Their Approved?
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We had Thirty Thousand Dollars in The Bank?
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But George Washington was Sixty-Two Thousand Dollars A year and so that meant that We were?
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32,000 [Towards] That first Year and you start to
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You Know when You’ve Been Accepted to college
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The January before you’re Going to go in September you start to
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Find out About Financial Aid and you Stretch it you have to Apply [for] it and you have to figure all this out and so
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We still Had Thirty Two Thousand Dollars Left that We needed for [that] Year of College and his Parents Told Us?
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We had Just Been on A Vacation in Bournemouth our Days and?
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We were There for Two Weeks all Together but They Didn’t Have the Financial Papers I needed to so
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We had All These Conversations When We were on Vacation about?
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What We were Going to do this was the Plan and the Plan was for me to go back to colorado my Husband
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Was living in New York Because he Had Just Gotten A job Back There and was staying with my and A tee so
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We talked About?
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How, We were Going to Handle this and how?
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They Wanted me to Take out a student Loan because if You take, one out With Student Loan Gov they
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Just is very low and?
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They Would Pay it off nine Thousand nine Hundred and Ninety-nine Dollars at a Time
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In Cash so that it Would go Into the Radar and Nothing Would get Slack Because. They, were using Cash
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And so this was the Plan and I went back and With all of Us on Skype?
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We i filled out This Form and
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my In-laws and my Husband were on Their end and I was
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Here in Colorado But I had all the financial Account Numbers [and] all the stuff that I had to fill out
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So i filled it out and you know I had all These Questions like
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Do you want to defer it and Those Parents Said no because
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We’re Just going to Pay the next you know next year we’ve got to Pay the whole 62 so
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We’ll have to spread that out over sixth you know Tied and so
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They’re like
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No don’t defer it I was like Should I put it in my Name and his Name my Husband’s Name and They’re like
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no, no
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No he Makes so much more Money than you and We don’t want them to have to like Figure out your
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Little Business it’s Just Easier He’ll Qualify for it so
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Just put it in his Knee Which is what I did?
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I have
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So much Documentation and emails that
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Was between?
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you Know Them and Me and Maybe after the Call they you know
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Congratulated Me and Said what A great Job it was and they, were so proud of me for
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you Know Filling out Paperwork but um
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After all of That happened um
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They Came Here for my, son’s Graduation Which was in May and
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Mother Father Sister my father Came and
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My Husband he back so they, were all here from Regards to the Graduation and it was a really weird week A
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Mother and my Husband Work Constantly Whispering in Each Other’s Ears to the point where my own Father
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Was like what Is going on what Is he Doing and [There’s] [A] [spring] in The Corner and it was all very?
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Suspicious and All and I didn’t it was Perfectly normal
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Oh yeah, when I’m A lots of Parties Lots of Things and Everything was normal?
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They Left on Monday after the Graduation and
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Wednesday my
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Husband Calls Me on the Phone and Told me One of the Divorce
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Well This
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Was like A total Mindfuck to me Because I thought everything was normal and I was Flying to new York on Friday?
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and while They Had, been There for the whole Graduation
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Me and his Parent and Him that they’re Peeking out Houses that, We were Going to go look at, when I came to
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Connecticut on that Friday so right in Between me Leaving and he Calls Up and tells me This
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so I
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Went Into Shock and I was Having a Breakdown I seriously was not doing, well and?
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our House was Already Sold so Suddenly I’m Having to pack up A 5,000 Square Foot House and get Rid of
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You Know Three Quarters of Everything I owned my
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Husband Didn’t Come Back to help at all he Didn’t Come
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and
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It Just didn’t want his Stuff so Shortly After he Asked for the Divorce I get this Call on my answering Machine
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From This friend of his wife and
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This woman was it
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Probably Is at Work and I’m she is still a drunk and my in Love Hated this woman and
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Actually Asked her to weave a party at my at their House for my Birthday Because she was drunk and like?
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Belligerently Yelling at People at the Dinner Table and so I get this Call from this Woman and
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She leaves This message Saying that you know that my Husband doesn’t have to Pay my
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son’s College Fund and She’s Going off on this Tangent and
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When i asked him about it and the Divorce wasn’t even Filed and We were Kind of in the Limbo period
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Obviously he was Talking to her About it right and I
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Think She just blew Their Cover and
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He Made, her Make a public Apology or something he Sent her a little things that it wasn’t cool what she, did?
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to the drunken Lady all the pieces are Coming Together
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in Court I
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Was we were Going for the Word Divorce and as Many Months later my son?
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Was long Into School before I was August Sixteenth on my Birthday When I i actually Filed on him?
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but
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in Court
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he Claimed that I forged the Loan Papers and
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They Were Fighting that they, were not [going] to Pay one Red Penny and that
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I had Forged this Stuff
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I
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Obviously Came up with all [of] the Papers There’s Probably this Many Papers and Copies of Emails between Us and
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Questions I had Had to ask
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Excuse Me
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Before I was Filling out The Forms so going back and Forth at all These Copies?
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Showed Proof and Evidence Clearly to the Judge that they Knew Full, well About this Loan and
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The Judge in The end
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Put The Loan on his Side of the Settlement Table and Said that he Knew Full, well what?
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Was in his Name and that that he, was going to Accept Responsibility for This so they gave it to him
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Suddenly all my friends Back in connecticut, oh
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Mutual Friends I would Say Because Obviously I think my friends are Always There
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But These People that I met Through him?
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and
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Through Work, We Worked in The Same Location for 10 Years and?
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They Were Treating me Like I was some sort of like?
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Viper Or something, Every Time I see them when I’d go back There and Advice, hmm you know like Their skin
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Would Crawl and I didn’t understand what the
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Hell he Had Told them and it occurred [to] me to meet this is what he’s Been Telling them then I probably
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did something With This Education and
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After
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That Shock of all my friends Just Kind of like this is gas lighting this is gas Lighting to me to Make me Think that
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All Those years, We Didn’t sit Down and Have These Family Dinners and They Would tell Me and my son
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Were Paying for college I
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Didn’t want it and They?
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Insisted so There I was Stuck With A child going to a sixty-Two Thousand Dollars School and
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I had to fund this on my Own for the last Four [Years]
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That’s Financial Abuse and
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They Didn’t want Anyone to know
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The Truth That
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They
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Had Already Said They, were going to do this
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so after the Divorce was Finalized I
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Kept getting Bills from the student Loan Gov Department Saying you need to
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You need to Pay this and I Would send it to him and he Would ignore, ID and then I got A
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Knock on [my] door and they Had Called the Police in my town told them that I
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Forged These Papers and
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My lawyer Said Just Handle the Same Papers, We gave the Judge and We did and the Police
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Laughed in His Face and Within an Hour Said sorry and
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That One, Away i mean They
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Continued on This is about
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Six Months To A year After
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We were Divorced to Continued on and Call the federal Government and Accuse me of Federal Forgery this Time
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That I had Forged his Name and They weren’t going to Pay it and they Wanted it they
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Were demanding that the Loan be turned Back Into my name, well my name wasn’t even on it and
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Again Just gave Them the Papers and it all went away but
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He Didn’t Pay That Student room for over A year
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Because of All this legal Shit and Waiting for Federal Government to Determine that I was not a forger and
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I
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Think his Credit Probably Got ruined Because he Didn’t ever Care About it in The first Place I’m Metaman had to Fix it all
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but
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Now I am the Criminal and I
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was Made to think that I was Crazy and my son and I just Have a Conversation about this and
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[you] Know
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Were not crazy, We Didn’t Make this up and I didn’t want to take it in the first Place
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So they were out to Financially ruined Me and
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You know Did it Work I got my [Stepson] Through School and that’s all that Matters right now so
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Think About These Things These Things are Going to come up every Once in A while but Just like
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Bring Meaning to that Call from that drunken woman
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It’s all going to Make sense one day you’re going to put the pieces of the Puzzle together all I got this Is 3 feet.
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