Grand Finales cause a closure hole of pain.

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So often because of the unexpected ending in a relationship with a narcissist we are left with a closure hole of pain. Leaving us with questions that will never be answered. What can you do? Have a party you have been saved, if it had gone on longer your years would be wasted. No matter how long you were with a narcissist it was enough to give/lose.

 

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if you woke up in the morning and

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Your husband we’re sitting at the breakfast table with you, and it was just a normal everyday breakfast

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And you didn’t know that he was going to die that day

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You would have regret you would have sadness that you never got to say goodbye

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It’s it’s a normal reaction, and it’s something that

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Anyone who loses someone looks back on and thinks what if I had just if I had known that?

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that

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Time we made love was going to be the last time that

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last kiss

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That last hug I had known that that was the end I

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Don’t know if I would be better prepared

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but not having

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The opportunity to say goodbye to someone or fuck you to someone

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Or talk it out like normal human beings do when they break up

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it leaves victims with that same feeling as a

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Death it leaves them

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wondering

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What if things had been different?

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and I want to encourage you if

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You had that situation because I certainly did I never got the opportunity to really?

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Know that that my divorce was gonna go as bad as it did and I would never talk to this motherfucker again

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At first I was really sad I was so sad

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I

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was so upset in the beginning too because

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my Ex-husband and his entire family just walked away from my son and

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I

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Just sort of like

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Closure that’s sort of like

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Boom boom it’s over you don’t have a voice in it

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It it really hurt my son to never have the closure

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To have a conversation with someone who’d been his father for 10 years?

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To me that’s evil and cruel

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But I also know there’s another side to it and that that was a blessing for my son and for me

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to

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have to come to terms with

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Because we don’t

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know it’s going to get this bad and

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If you don’t get the opportunity to say goodbye to a narcissist I

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want to say that it’s

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something you’re Gonna come to terms with

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But it is something that is good for you. It’s like

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Automatic no contact you didn’t even know that word existed. You didn’t even know that that was something that was

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possible

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But it’s good for you

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So if he didn’t get the chance to say goodbye and that part inside your heart is

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feeling badly feeling that

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You would have liked that closure I

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Want to assure you that the stages that you’re going through right now?

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Are better?

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if you don’t ever have to see them again and

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So while we yearn because that little part of it that little tiny part?

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I’m not being able to say goodbye

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It’s it’s in our brain and and we add it to the pile of abuse we add it to that. That’s not fair pile

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but the reality is

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It’s probably one of the best gifts a narcissist can give us

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Without them of course knowing it. They don’t want to do this to be nicer or anything. They’re doing it because there are motherfuckers

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think of it as something towards your advantage something that is good for you, and

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Take that out of your guilt pile. Take that out of the pile that hurts every time you think about it

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and think how blessed you are turn the messaging around on that you are blessed because you

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don’t have to see them again and

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That outweighs that little tiny niggle inside of you liselle that word was for you. Pestis is our spot

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Nickel she used to always say nickel that little niggle inside of you that

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yearns for closure

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Even people who get to say goodbye get to have last words with their narcissus

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Don’t get closure

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so if it was a normal person yeah, definitely

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And if someone had passed away died suddenly boom you never saw them again

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This is the same kind of feeling that we get inside

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but

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If you’re on a narcissistic abuse channel, and you’re trying to learn about this then most likely

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You need to go no contact and it starts right at the very beginning, so if you didn’t get to say goodbye

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Thank God that you’re free

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Because it would have never been the goodbye that you thought it would have been

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this is Tracy and

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My son is coming in my eyes

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So thank you for watching subscribe to my channel. Have a great day. Sorry my hair is a mess. It’s really windy out here

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Thank you

 

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