In this exercise I looked at what I have learned in three months. I look at the lessons and I talk to that little Tracy. Now if this could be sent back in time someday please send this to Tracy Malone at age 6.
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Hi there. This is Tracy and today. I would like to talk to you
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About an exercise that I was asked to do this week and and I really think that it’s helped me try to
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Really understand my past a little bit better, and I’m Gonna give you my results
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And it’s the mission was to tell make video to tell myself
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My younger self, what would I tell that Tracy?
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When she was 46, whatever I can do that right now
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Dear Tracy this is your grown-up self. I’m 55 years young and
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I’ve come back from the future to tell you some things that you might want to think about when you’re younger
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I
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think I’m Gonna start at age six and
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[I’m] gonna tell myself that my mother and my father
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Did not break up because of anything that I did I can release that guilt
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It wasn’t your fault
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if I talk to my tracy at age eight, I would tell her to remember and
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really pay attention
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What an eight-year-old doesn’t have a long attention span, but one day?
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Your father is going to come over, and that’s gonna be the last time that you see him
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If you don’t remember putting that much attention on it
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It’s okay, but if you can hear this before you turn eight and before you learn that your father will never be seen again
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Would you spend that time differently would you put down the barbie and then just talk to daddy for a few minutes?
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At age ten I would tell myself that I’m not too skinny
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And my teeth are gonna get straightened out, so it will all be okay?
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By the time I’m 12
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I want to tell myself that the people that I’m meeting today the friends that I am going to meet
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Are going to be there [for] the rest of my life?
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pay attention
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It’s okay to get bad the bad ones and make them go away
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You might not know [that] but if you have people that aren’t good in your life
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It’s okay for letting them. Go you have that right? You don’t have to hold on to anyone
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They’re not your father, and they’re not coming back. It’s good pick the good ones and keep them forever, okay?
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To my 15 year old self, I’d like to say I know that you’re thinking [about]
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Not doing well in school
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Just to get any kind of attention out of your parents
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But I want you to know that even though you pretended not to listen
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you were listening and here you are you’re
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Older self, I guess what you’re smart
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So why not shine for that and not for their attention but for you because the things that you learn like?
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Spelling which I suck at now
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It would really help you in life
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if you paid more attention in school
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To my 16 year old self, I’d like to say open your eyes
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you’re kind of living in a fairy tale and
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When you grow up, you’re gonna find out that
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There’s always an evil queen
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Or a bad guy a monster. You’re gonna find that out and the life that you lead right now on paper
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on paper
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Love that term
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It looks good
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But I want you to open your ears open your ears when you’re home people fighting is not normal
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Siblings not talking to one another it’s not normal and I want you to
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Try to unite you and your sisters because together as a whole unit of sisters
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You’re going to be able to change the path of your life
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because
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I’m sorry to tell you but your mother was a narcissist. It’s not her fault. We know how she grew up, but
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She’s gonna try to pull your sisters in you apart
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because
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She’s not gonna be able to love more than one at a time or pretend, but she does
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She’s really sucking energy out of them and you
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some day
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She’ll be gone like she is right now
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and
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the one regret would be that you always just wanted her love you and
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That’s exactly what your sisters have to you so if you can unite your sisters
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Then you will always have a family don’t let her pull that apart
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to my 18 year old self
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I’d like to say who the hell knows what they’re going to do in for the rest of their life when they’re 18
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Don’t judge yourself because you didn’t know how your life was going to turn out
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I want you to think of every single job that you are going to have and
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Know that it will have a purpose in your life whether you bake wedding cakes, or you scoop ice cream when you’re 16?
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You’re going to learn to be a really good mom
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If you’d like to do crafts and arts, it’s gonna help you be a [good] mother
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if you’re creative you’re going to learn and be an interior designer and
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If you’re smart you’re going to learn to market to make websites to help people because that is going to be your destiny
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until it’s not
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to my [20] [year] old self
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I’d like to say to
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Find self-respect
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If you don’t start to value yourself now more than others
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Someday it’s going to backfire
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Learn what self-love is
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Learn Boundaries boundaries are really important and sweetie by the time you’re 55 you don’t know them
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You’re gonna end up being what they call it people pleaser and a people pleaser
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Isn’t a bad person without a mental disorder
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It does stem from your need to be loved when you are child
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And you just want to make everyone happy if you make everyone happy then they will love you
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If you make everyone happy then you are being a good girl
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So know [that]
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You have to respect yourself, and you have to love yourself as much as you ever loved anyone else
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To my 30 year old self, I’d like to tell her that
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she’s going to Marry A man and
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There’s a reason
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There’s a gift
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But you’re not there to stay you’re there with the purpose
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Your 20 year old self
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She was fun. She was wild but
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when he met and married
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your first husband
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He taught you a lot about life
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He gave you the greatest gift your son
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Don’t feel bad that that wasn’t good enough. It was a step in your life
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so don’t
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Make another bad choice because you think that you’re an unlovable
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To my 33 year old self, I’d like to say you’re going to be a great mother. You’re only Gonna have one child
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but
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Your motto and your Mantra about that
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Whenever you talk about this wonderful child is going to be that you had the best. So there was no reason for the rest
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He’s a special boy. You’re a blessed, and he will love you forever
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To my 40-year old self I’d like to say
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remember that [thing] about the
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Fairy Tales and the
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Illusion of your actual life and things that were happening that you just didn’t even really think about
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That comes back to you because you make a choice in your 40s
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It’s it’s a blind choice. It really is you didn’t do it on purpose. You didn’t really know that
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People could be unlike you you didn’t know that they could lie and and hurt you and and live false lives
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You know I just want you to know that there are people out there
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learn [about] this
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they’re called narcissists and
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They’re very dangerous
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but
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There may be a reason
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that you had to go through that marriage there may be a light at the end of the tunnel for you if you
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Treat it differently if you learn that
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bubbles
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beautiful things
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Aren’t love if you learn that just because someone says they have class, but they don’t
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You want to learn to listen to People’s?
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actions more than their works because Tracy you trust them and
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you want to be trusted and people can trust you and you think that’s how everyone is but
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There’s some stuff that’s happened in your life earlier
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And if you learn some of those lessons the path might change
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It might not
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And you might end up exactly where you are today making a youtube video in your kitchen on a Saturday afternoon
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but
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if I look back at my life
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Everything happened for a reason and I do believe
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With all my heart that I am here to help people now. I am here to
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Do what I can to
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educate people young and old
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Make a movement. Maybe all of us
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Who have [been] affected can make a stand maybe all of us can change?
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the face of our children if they can learn about
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Narcissists and
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Personality disorders, what a Codependent is
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self-love
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Wouldn’t that be awesome lessons tend to repeat themselves?
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Unless you learn them and this is really good advice little tracy. I don’t care how old you were
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you have the strength you have the brains to
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Have more respect for yourself
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Don’t be tricked
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Don’t be a target because if if you don’t learn these things you are going to be a target, and it’s not a pretty thing
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You’re gonna find out your whole life was a lie
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But you know what this day forward when I’m making this video to my little tracy from this day forward
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You’re [going] to be so much stronger
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and you’re going to have a happy ending because
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You love the right person finally
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You love yourself Tracy
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Because I done this like 30 years earlier. Oh my God that would have been awesome
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all I got
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