As you explore the meaning of what a narcissist is and what the hell just happened you eventually will get to a place that you ask yourself… Why was a target? How was I so fooled? Am I crazy it sure felt real? This is part of my journey and I have figured out why I was a victim and how I was targeted by the narcissist crazy people world. My advice is to wait… Give your rely time to heal, understand and educate yourself so this never happens again. I hope this helps you in you r journey.
This is Tracy what I keep hearing about is our lives after we were involved with arts and what I wanna talk about is a little bit of I think what made a target, and I think there’s a lot more to it from my childhood and whatever else, but in regard to two X, I was going through a divorce with one ex-one ex-is not a narcissist, he was far nice mail. Just not the one father of my child, but it’s going through that of time, a hard time.
I was very vulnerable.
I wanted a family, I was a breed, I was losing a family I wanted security for my son had a great job, but I’d never been… well, I was scared. So they came to accent his family came along and I met every… one of the things I was afraid they knew it because they asked and were concerned and endearing and loving and showing me exactly what I wanted to see. It’s like mirroring. But, he scoped to me up when I was in a really hard place and when I was going through my divorce ten years later with him, I had just finished and I met the X. he was Friend of Friends, of money, so I trusted him, they said, he’d been through a horrible divorce, and was always crying and that you know me coming into his life, was a good thing.
I was certainly one of the honest relationships I’ve ever been in. I think that on the scale of NARI “Krazy he was a 14 out of 100. I’m gonna write a book about him, and you’re gonna hear the craziest thing that you ever heard a person to do, but just whatever.
When I was with him, he made me feel so special. A to T, X. when you were with them, there was this intense thing that rowing towards them and with that, it was control. They nail you on everything and they gave you everything you wanted to because they asked you and then they protected. Now for me, darkness was a very big thing with the X, I mean really know what it was and I certainly didn’t know that other people had this happen. I just heard someone on a video on YouTube today. Talk about the darkness and this is exactly what the ex did during our two-and-a-half years together. He traveled a lot for business, which that’s okay that’s what he does, but he also would just sort of like, again, the texting and the calling and then when he was in town, it was meaning and you know he would leave his children home sleeping and come over crazy, but he picked me up when I was going through a divorce.
So what I’m trying to say here in telling you this story, I need this advice no matter what, I’m just keeping this advice right here, so I wanna teach it to you because I have two experiences that a good out of two relationships with nares. They picked me up and they gave me everything I wanted, they told me the stories I was in a former able place so I believed them, it felt really, really real. There was never a time that it didn’t felt real until it ended when they ended. That is when the darkness came behind their eyes and it was like You were nobody like the days and the nights and all of the memories that want to us, like Are you driving down the street and you just see something here? Like Shit, I don’t wanna go there because he used to eat there. There’s just places and things that haunt us. It’s what does not on your narcissist. They could go to your mother’s house and not give a shit. It would have no emotional attachment to them.
And with time, creating a new memory if you have a brush at that you love to go to, by golly get five friends, so the six of you a as party trial and have a new memory and screw the fact that that thing that is yours and yours is a couple still hunt as you drive by it every day. So when this happens, I want you to think of that place and find a new memory for it. Or if it’s too painful. And I’m not saying that I know at all there all “Elbe places, but if you conquer, them, there will no longer be shame and they will no longer be fear of driving, by that store or that thing. So pull yourself together and don’t get into a relationship right now.
If you are just finding out about this Guess what, we’re vulnerable, we are perfect targets and you know what, you’ll fall for it. The Alford a can because we want the dream we gave ourselves in a dream, wasn’t real, but we gave ourselves… I’m just suggesting, “Don’t do it now seriously don’t date Pay with your face movies at them over our house. You be quiet, keep your mind quiet just sit or to meditate, I enjoy your life.
And don’t jump into something… again, not for a little while.
You have all figured out and you’ve got this new confidence about you. This new armor, and this shield, that’s one I might be going, but for now.
No, women just be you.