Time goes by and we suffer from the abuse we were unaware we were even in. Does that make it not real? Are we making it up? NO! But time does seem to stop when we are recovering. The damage to our souls needs to heal.
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Get to be Thanksgiving
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Get to be the end of
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November I
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feel like this entire year is a big blur I
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Know that the narcissist abuse and the healing
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And everything that has happened to me with the arrest
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with my cancer with
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Just learning about this. It’s affected everything about me and I
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Can see now that my
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I’m just not on my a game
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And I know that all of us has s targets of narcissists apiece we go into this shock where
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It’s hard to believe and I think that what I want to say here is some days I
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feel strong and other days
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The fear creeps back inside of me
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And I think this is normal and I want people to know that
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We all go through this it’s up and down, it’s a roller coaster
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And I know that I have to forgive myself for
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Maybe gaining weight
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For not being able to focus as much as I used to
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I’m trying to cut myself slack here
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Because I’ve been through an awful lot
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And I know you have to
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Men and women
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We’ve all been affected by someone that hurt us and whether it was a parent her neighbour
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Husband spouse
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We all are experiencing the same thing, and I am so grateful for this community, I am so grateful that my
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words are helping others
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Because others are helping me, and I think it’s just we’re on a ladder and that’s really what it is
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We’re all on a ladder of recovery to get back our self and really
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Untangle the spiderweb around us
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And I don’t think anyone’s immune
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And I don’t want people to think that everybody is
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Falling down a hole
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But if you go down a little bit, it’s okay the important part is to really turn to this community because
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In each one of our stories and every single comment that people leave us
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Read those when you watch a video
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It’s so important and as people think you are
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writing comments and interacting and
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and being part of a community here I
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Want you as you watch this to feel part of that community, too
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because it is such an important step in this process I
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Would be on camera right now because of that
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It’s a Friday night time and I took a hot bath
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and I
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Put on like deep conditioner, which I’m gonna leave it all night
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and I put a facial thing on and moisturizer and
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I’m just taking care of me
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I took off my nail polish I filed my nails I
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Just did what I could I know there’s a ton of work. I need to do tonight
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And I also know right now I need to take care of me
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And I want you to remember that too that sometimes
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It’s okay to take care of yourself
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And pushing doesn’t make anything happen any better or any faster. Just remember to take care of yourself
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This is Tracy and that’s all I got
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