As I tell my story it does entail a betrayal, a Brain fu*k, an arrest and an amazing learning curve. My goal is to raise awareness with my story but not to have it be a pity party, victim speak, but to teach others the dangers of a sociopath narcissist so they are empowered to be aware and use caution. I do not want my story to bring fears that weren’t inside them before.
While narcissists both men and women use the police, courts, judges to further victimize there supply not all narcissists are this extreme. Domestic violence does account for 20% of our annual murders in this country but our system is understaffed our teachers unaware of signs children are being abused.
This is my story of hope and healing.
Transcription:
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Hi, this is Tracy it’s late at night, and I am uploading videos
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That Liz L and I have been making for about a week
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Trying to make this coming out video
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something that I
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Had my meetup group tonight
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for narcissist abuse
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and we had a lot of new members, and I was really good to see their faces but
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What happened was as everyone went around and told their story again was that there was
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My story which included my arrest
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And this has become my mission to educate people
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And let them understand sort of the dangers of really a sociopathic
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Narcissistic person that’s going to
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Use every tool in his arsenal to or her personal to protect themselves and their lives right so
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What I wasn’t really sensitive of and I feel kind of bad is
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That this would trigger fear in others
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And that’s not my intention, and I am sorry for the people that were there that
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Got that and I’m sorry that I wasn’t sensitive enough to it
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But I want people to know that
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This isn’t about my story
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While it’s horrible it is such a common story, and it is so many people’s story and
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I don’t think that we should stay quiet about it
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If we stay quiet about it
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Then
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The world will never really truly know the depth and the
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amount of danger
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That holding this tonight. It’s not easy, but that the danger that we’re in
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Being with a narcissist the most important thing that I have learned
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Is don’t let the narcissist know you’re onto them
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Don’t confront them if you think this
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Don’t ever tell them if you do
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That’s when they will come with their claws out, and that’s when the danger is
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This is my last story about me. This is a story about so many others
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And I think
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It’s the lack of empathy
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Might not be this extreme it might not be this crazy making rate. It might be something that um
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You see and it’s just a little bit bigger than you’ve ever seen before just
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Know these are dangerous signs and these are things that can happen
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to anybody
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It doesn’t matter what walk of life. You’re in
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Narcissists hurt people and they don’t have any empathy
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you know while I sat there in jail I
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kept imagining
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That this person that put me there
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was
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probably feeling badly because I
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This was extreme
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He probably said he probably didn’t know this was gonna happen, and he couldn’t stop it
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This was the town against me not him he was a victim
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And so he couldn’t have stopped if he wants you to and so I thought that he would be
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Worried about me
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When I found out that
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Was L asked him
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And said she felt bad that what was happening thought. It was a way over the top for what had happened she
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said she felt bad
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Maybe said I didn’t
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Really I
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Don’t think he did
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When I was in court the DK da came up to my lawyer and I was sitting next to him and
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He had told her that he might show up for court and he was warning
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She was warning my lawyer. You know to be prepared and to prepare me that if you walked in
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He wanted to be hurt by the judge. He didn’t like that
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The punishment I was given was he thought was not enough and she told my lawyer
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He wanted me to go to jail for six months
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and this was all to
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Hide his lies the length said he was willing to go to to lie and make up things
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And I actually have nothing inside
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This is a man, I thought was my best friend
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This is a man that had had me watch his child
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for forty days last year
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Left me alone
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Left me alone with a sick child to take to an emergency room while he got on a plane
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left me alone with him with a broken shoulder and I had to cut his waffles and
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you know like bite-sized food and make his lunches and and
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Dress him at night and put his sling back on. He left me with his child
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He borrowed money from me
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many many times
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Those were things that I thought we shared that were real and to find out that none of them were
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That’s the scary part
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We’re making our video
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Or putting it together actually we cut all the pieces. Sorry. This is shaky. I’m holding it because I wasn’t gonna make a video
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But these feelings came out and I wanted to share that’s how I got thanks this is Tracy
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