Happy new year to all my Podcast friends. Let’s get better together and empower yourself to learn more, self care and grow My name is Tracy A Malone @TracyAMalone I have been a life long victim of narcissist abuse but I did not know. I have created this channel as my own personal journey and it is with that story I hope we heal.
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Hi there. This is Tracy. Happy New Year today is January first
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2017 and I really wanted to make a video yesterday and
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wish all of my
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online friends a happy New Year
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but I was really sick I spent New Year’s Eve with a box of tissues and
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Um I was in bed by ten [o’clock], so I didn’t get a chance to make this video
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But it did get give me a lot of time to reflect back on to
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this past year and and I know that we all do that around New Years and
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for us that have possibly found out about narcissists this year, we
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We are reflecting back on a lot of shit a lot of stuff has happened
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and I
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Know for me that this channel has helped me grow and helped me learn and help me focus on
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learning and becoming more of an expert for myself and then and to share that with you because
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Having this channel is is is
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keeping me in this loop of
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learning and never never stop
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understanding it and
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Understanding my accountability in a narcissist abuse situation, and how did I get here? How did my life?
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like change so much in such a short period of time
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55 years of not knowing and then poof
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You know because you’ve hit the bottom and I’m here to tell you that
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No matter how low you are right now. No matter how scared you are
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pain is temporary alright, so while we’re in it right now and
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You don’t see how you’re going to get to the other side
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I want you to know that there is another side, and it’s a very big bright beautiful future
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Because now we know
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We didn’t know before but now we no
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We’re not gonna get fooled again and while we’re dealing with this pain and the struggle
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It’s [it’s] just a step. It’s actually a chapter in a book I went and got some of the books off my chest
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These books are so cool. One of them’s from
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1837 and
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If we look at our life as chapters
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It’s a really good way to look at it that that chapter was there for a reason right we found out about our
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asshole
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narcissists who abused us
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Just in time to save the rest of our life, and [we’re] gonna be okay in the end
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So for me this channel has helped me by helping you and I encourage you
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Sorry, my voice sounds terrible I encourage you to
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share your knowledge and don’t let
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This pain will your life
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Okay to look at the New Year. I
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Know that I made a lot of decisions out of fear. I didn’t know [that] before but now I do and
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All we can control is
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This minute in time it we can’t control yesterday
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and we cannot [control] tomorrow, and that means this minute if we decide to stay stuck and sad and
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Not try to learn more try to absorb as much as we can then then we will be stuck here forever
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and that’s not a place you want to be don’t let the narcissist win and
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and run your life
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Don’t let the narcissists like have that control write a new chapter to chapter
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Should be an accountability of self?
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so that
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No one can ever trick us again
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We have to get out of the chapter about
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sadness and horror and Betrayal
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and
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Stop reading that chapter from a Victim’s perspective
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Start to look at it as a hopeful new beginning new
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learning new
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Understanding about you because it is about you. It’s not about the stupid ass narcissist
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They were here for a reason and they taught us about
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This it turned us to Youtube it turned us to read books
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We [have] become educated and we must think that
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situation
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for the gift of knowing
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remember that life is not about being knocked down and and
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Being beaten these things are going to happen no matter what it’s about. How do we get up?
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How do we show Grace and dignity?
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Far Beyond anything that these?
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People did to us great
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Pain is not forever and don’t let the fear of your choices
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The people that you trust don’t let the fear of that stop you [from] tomorrow
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We’ve got a lot [to] learn let’s do it together
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Don’t be tempted to give up on yourself and allow yourself to fall down
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Just for a little while, but then decide that that chapter is over
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You were tricked betrayed, and this was the work of evil
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But you have [the] power to change right [now], and I know this is so, hokey
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New Year’s day and all but by golly. I think we can all heal together
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Yay
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so let’s plan a good New Year’s and
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Let’s do this
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healing together
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I want to thank all of my subscribers and all of the people who have watched my videos all year long because you’ve helped me
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and when you leave a comment, I try to answer you and if you subscribe
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You’ll get to see all my new stuff. I am constantly learning. I am constantly researching
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I am here to [help] you as you go through this journey
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And thank you for letting me share my journey of healing with you, so this is Tracy
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That’s all [I] got this is a happy new Year wish and [I] think it’s time [for] my tissue Box now
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So have a good year
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subscribe if you haven’t and
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Have a great New Years
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2017 is our ear. I’m sure
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